I know.... i KNOW...

Yeah a hell of alot of things have happened and i know you need the 411.... but time is not really on my side when i get a free minute i promis things will all be revealed...

Its Cold Outside

Well to tell you the truth its cold in here... I dont know what to tell you i just feel like no matter how far i get i have to take like three steps back... and i know its always the same people saying it well thats because they actually have reason for it and i think the world should fix it... what ever happened to karma and the world balancing itself... I guess it just takes longer than most people think it does... but hey one step at time... Anyway on a lighter note the semester is almost over and im soon to be in warming climates...

We Were Only Seventeen And His Eyes Were Green...

Nothing special has happen except i got extremely lucky as far as my classes... can you extension on a paper... But i better new Tamyra Gray what happened to her i miss all her music... so ofcourse i went on a musical deep dive and submerse myself in all of her good stuff... :-)

!!! Update !!!

Wow guys it has been forever since I've written on this blog... . . . . . . . . my life have gone through so many ups and downs and changes. I have grown and developed in ways that I cant even fully comprehend. I've been through high confessions with friends and back seat epiphanies with family. I've watch someone take there own life and gained a little brother in one way or another. I've been skiing in NYC and been able to see the world upside down and inside out… I've been homeless and lived off of friends slumming it and now rent my own apartment. This year has been crazy and there have been days when I didn’t know how to deal, so I just shut down….. . . . . . .
. . .. . . . . I've learned how are my real friends-- people who instead of asking where have you been …………….tell me to call them so they can come to me--- People who say stay as long as you need instead of when are you leaving-- IDK … I complained last year about how nobody seemed to change or grow as a person, well I got my wish people changed not all of the changes were for the better but, hey they will eventually find their ways……….. ........
. . . . . . . . . . Just like im finding mine… I also promise to keep you guys updated on how things change….

Fear

To quote one of my favorite singers "I'm not afraid of Lions and Tigers and Bear but im afraid...
... you see people i go back to school in like a week and for once in my life my school is paid for and i mean paid for everything is done which I'm really thankful for... but of course nothing in my life can be simple so i don't have a place to live and i don't have the money to get a place but i refuse not to go to school so where does that leave me... Asking for help.. i hate to ask for help its just extremely hard for me because I'm supposed to be able to control my own life and i know i cant control everything but I'm supposed to be able to get my own money and work and go to school that's how i want my life to be independent of everybody else....
.... But we all know that life just doesn't work that way and i have to find a way to live with the help of others so I'm sitting in my room mentally going crazy because i have to call my friends and family and tell them that I'm too poor to have a place to live and i need to live off of them til i can get my shit together... makes you feel all warm and tingly right... but whatever its just going to be a crazy and very interesting few weeks in NYC and hopefully i can keep myself together long enough to make it til i have my own place...we shall see and of course ill keep you updated...
...So ill end how i began with a quote from Alicia Keys "If Your Troubled... You Just Gotta Let It Go"...

Drinks,Twinks, And So Much More....

Well basically with help of one of my best friends I've broken into the group of people we so fondly refer to as the DC Gays..........Most of them are really cool guys and the girls they associate with are usually really cool too.. So how the relationship works is we are kinda younger than most of them but the actually treat us like we're equals cause you know i try my hardest to avoid, all things petty, childish, and around immature...
... the cool thing is that all of these guys are part of the club scene so i get ti see them at least twice a week and thanks to them this summer has been full of adventures and experiences that are beyond what i ever would have thought that i would be able to get to at my age... especially because the way i was raised i tend to be on the later curve of alot both mentally and physically but trust i always end at head of the class.... Anyway back to the structure of the group we usually club and then socialize outside of the club, this leads to pizza and drinks. And then we head back to "the spot" which is all I'll call it at this point. And various activities go on mostly revolving around free drinks and music...
... But its been a blast getting to know these people and evolving from the "Extra" as some people would try to refer to me as to the "Main Event." Anyway much love people and ill see wear this all heads...

Job Fail

Okay this was not my fault but i only had this job for all of two day. It started out being really cool, but i knew it was trouble from the start because it wasn't what it promised to be. It turned out to be a canvasing job in the DC/Metro area. Which meant i would be walking around in the blazing heat for hours at a time trying to solicit money from people in Silver Spring. People in silver spring have money but not enough to give away......... Then on top of all that those people were so distrusting of me being 1. Under Age and 2. Black that alot of them didn't even want to open the door. And i also love the line that they don't give money across the door when I'm holding records saying they have given to my company for the last 3-5 years across the door....How is that supposed to make me feel????.......

...............So of course i didn't make quota and they were like we don't want you to come back, but the only thing is the contract i signed said that i had three days to make quota but no argument from me i really wasn't cut out for that job...........but there was a silver lining i did make 125 dollars.... :-)