Little Monsters

Hey world im back its a new year... i feel like i havent changed that much just my ideals and goals have been expanded just that much more... But the topic of today is Little Monsters of my life. People as usual have begun to piss me off again... especially over this whole Lady Gaga thing... this girl comes out with nothing little of an explosion and people were falling at her feet...
... now everyone and their respective mothers have begun to turn against her and say that she is crazy, her music is sub par, and that she has no point in this world. I guess bandwagons come like buses you miss one next fifteen another ones coming. Give me a break if you like someone delve into the person they are and what they stand for and if you like them fine, but don't just go around spewing nonsensical hate because you think its the cool thing to do this week... And actually on that same token why do you feel the need to emerse yourself so far into someones elses life that you loose you own identity. At least for Gaga its about being yourself not like everyone else even her... Please be yourself and you'll never be out of style...so to speak :)

New Look. . .

Ive been working on a new look for life so i decided to look for a new profile design. .. enjoy and keep reading lots of stuff to come.. .you know the summer always gets me thinking and writing :-)

He was always so sweet.

I was told a few weeks ago that I wasn't the same person that they remember being around last time that I saw them… wow I can believe that they could be soo perceptive. Yes Ive changed… I'm no the sweet person that I used to be at least not in the way that that person thinks. Ive become an optimistic realist. Yes I want to fuck someone in DC without the hopes of building a relationship…. Due to the fact that I live in NYC.... the world is not a fairy tale. I don’t think that that makes me a different person. I will still love and treat that person with all the human dignity that they deserve but why would I strain their lives when its not necessary.
I still dream of someone to hold me and just sit in our own aura…while the world just continues to move around us… but that’s has not happened and it just seems like the world doesn't want it for me right now… soo I don’t see the problem with a little causal sex….
IDK the world is still an adventure to me and I'm still dreaming of seeing someone with a smile and dating and loving someone but searching for a diamond in the rough lead people to go insane in our history… I need my sanity… I need to make it…

I'm Back Bitches… Oh Fuck You Too

Summer is creeping around the corner and im ready to write again its been coming to me all the time thoughts, feelings, and rants…. The next series of post tell the spring will be raw unedited stream of conscientiousness type of writing starting with this one.
Ahh fuck the world… I'm soo ready to just run away to some European country and work as a waiter. This whole deal of society and knowing people to work is just tiring on my soul. Im soo sick of wishing for my fairy tale and being constantly let down. But the realist in me knows that this is almost my fairy tale im living on my own starving and going out into fucking NYC to get coffee and lunch. Ive dropped everyone who is fake in my life and learned how to take or leave people as they come. Im so tired of sending emails and dialing number Ive paided my dues and deep down inside… I just want someone to call me. If im such a great person… if you luv me soo much why the hell haven’t I heard from you in 2 years… some people luv goes without saying but other. Really my number hasn't changed and never in our relationship did I act like I would’t appreciate a phone call or a fucking facebook message… IDK…. I don’t want to end up like a Sondheim musical… its hard to be an optimist in this world especially when I never seem to evolve past somebodies friend.

I know.... i KNOW...

Yeah a hell of alot of things have happened and i know you need the 411.... but time is not really on my side when i get a free minute i promis things will all be revealed...

Its Cold Outside

Well to tell you the truth its cold in here... I dont know what to tell you i just feel like no matter how far i get i have to take like three steps back... and i know its always the same people saying it well thats because they actually have reason for it and i think the world should fix it... what ever happened to karma and the world balancing itself... I guess it just takes longer than most people think it does... but hey one step at time... Anyway on a lighter note the semester is almost over and im soon to be in warming climates...

We Were Only Seventeen And His Eyes Were Green...

Nothing special has happen except i got extremely lucky as far as my classes... can you extension on a paper... But i better new Tamyra Gray what happened to her i miss all her music... so ofcourse i went on a musical deep dive and submerse myself in all of her good stuff... :-)